It was scary, I felt bad like I was doing something wrong. First person I thought I wanted to make plans with, a future, a family, marriage, but his career was going no where and his life seemed to be going backwards. I broke up with my first serious boyfriend. i still can't believe it, that she's here. It has given me tangible, in-my-face reasons for why to be the best person I can be. It has changed the way I see every single day. it was jarring b/c i've had so much else on my mind and it was like life kicking me in the shins. i felt terrible b/c i had emails from her that went unanswered. Knowing this program will be 4 years long. So my big experience this year? Moving to London! It has been a month now and I don't feel much. unpacking, having an amazing time with my mother, then having to say goodbye, knowing we wouldn't see the other for a long time! and starting University on my own. First my family and friends thinking i couldn't do it, packing, getting there. It was a big big big thing moving abroad. Many experiences, but if I have to say only one it would be moving to London! I know my beautiful new daughter (whose birth should be the most significant experience that happened last year) will be instrumental in making sure that doesn't happen. My fear is that I remain the bitter, sad person that I am today. Obviously, this has effected every part of my being. She was much sicker than she led on to, mainly so she wouldn't add more of a burden to what I was already going through with my son. My son was battling cancer and was non-responsive to treatments-we knew he was going to die and, yes, there was some relief at the end. I've felt numb for most of the year, followed by sadness and anger. Unfortunately, this year is not one of them. There were many years where I would have no meaningful answer to this question. I lost my job and i am sad, angry, scared. Realized a girl I thought I could love did not feel the same, and that she never would. His cats live in my house as a constant reminder of his predicament. he is in prison now, serving a three-year sentence. He was acquitted, but the jury "split the baby" and found him guilty of involuntary manslaughter. I was proud of my ability to be there in a qualitative way for him, month after month as this vile threat dragged on. I stood by my brother as he was accused of murdering his beloved wife. Thank you God for allowing me to be guided by you. I have refocused myself and become a better person for it. Seriously challenged my faith and sobriety. I am grateful, relieved and still hurting nonetheless. I love him dearly, and he loves me dearly. We would still do anything to fix it and try and make it work but for now, we are the best of friends and we are okay with that. That being said, neither of us regret anything - we've both learned so much about ourselves and if anything it's made our bond stronger. He is my best friend, and I think that's how it should have stayed. The relationship itself was short, but intense and full of every unhealthy tendency a relationship could have. The end of my relationship about a month ago. But I am grateful for the new opportunities and the welcoming nature of my new friends and colleagues. Nothing was better in the new place, only worse.at first. After 4.5 years in one place, it was hard to be open to changes. I still think about the election sometimes and it is still hard when I do but I quickly cheer myself up while remembering that when one door closes another opens (or in this case many open).Ī significant experience for me this year was moving from one country to another with my family. I am having a fabulous time and got to do something completely new and out of my comfort zone. I am currently in Spain and will be going to Israel for the second half of the year. I also decided to take a gap year anyways. But, because I didn't get that position I ended up working at summer camp and absolutely loving it, I made amazing friends and got to inspire my campers. I ended up losing and at the time believed it to be the worst thing that could have happened to me. It was going to include me taking a gap year (after high school) and I worked endlessly preparing for it. I ran for a really important election this year. Facing things.getting closer in terms of my relationship with my sister. Proud of my actions this past year in regards to going back to Ohio and helping. I finally can say that I am a woman, and feel it. How did it affect you? Are you grateful? Relieved? Resentful? Inspired? Describe a significant experience that has happened in the past year.
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